i loved you tender
i loved you sweet
you never loved me
so i did this to show you the real me
the one you need to love
not the one you hate
no i am gone
and your too late
So my life is in your hands
and my heart in your soul
so please dont break me
but make me whole.
i want to be complete
not shattered on my knees
i love you darling
for once i am in peace.
slowly the razor touchs the skin.
the ounce of the soul left slowly drifts away.
the pain will hurt for a bit.
in this tub i pour out my life.
crimson red fills around me,
sucking me in deep and soft.
to a pillow of death where i will lay my head.
forgot this world for i dont below.
one quick flick
and it will all be done
so here i go
flick flick flick
i end it now
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hello out there in the world of make belive
life is not allways what it seems
just know death is sooner then you think.
so breath in the air that will kill you sooner then you think
and slit your wrist
while you dream of me
and ill i will see you soon
my love to be
a fire blazes deep inside
with a heat that torches everything near us
our love so passion so deep so loving so sweet
no one understand no one can compete
we love with a blaze of the sun
and the heat intensify our passion for you and me
burning deep adn strong
never to go out
a fire ablaze inside me
all because you love me so deep
the fight that ended my life by DAwk420, literature
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the fight that ended my life
the screams echo
the pain scream out
the shouts get loud the fighting never stop
why do i stay listneing to the people i love fight
hes drunk she high and now the fight
he hits her she cries out
for me to save her
but how can i im only nine
so now im nineteen and i dont know what to do
the pain still hauntes me still come up
so i hide from it cause now she dead and hes in jail
ill never see them again
im lost forever
the night my soul was crushed by DAwk420, literature
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the night my soul was crushed
the night was dark
tht air was cold
the walk was long
the store was lonly
but for us three there
we talk a little
they said things that hurt
things that dug deep into my soul
things that cut me deep inside
when i walk from that store
with my gum in hand
i know my life was different
would never be the same
cause that was the night my soul was crushed away
she says shes the princess
she calls herself a queen
but to me shes more
shes everything
shes the love of my live
she the flame
that lights up my soul
shes the begin of ever day
and the last thought of every night
but to her she is only a princess
only a queen
the poem i wrote cause of you by DAwk420, literature
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the poem i wrote cause of you
her hair is dark
her eyes a light green
her soul in peace
her spirt at ease
but yet she dont know
how i feel about thee
so i sit and wait
hoping one day she will
see the greatness in me
the night is dark and i love you
i cant belive i found you
you heart of gold your eyes are great
a long live with you is all i crave
i cant belive i have you in my site
cant belive that someday you will be my wife
but as of now stress has but things between us
but the love in our heart pulls us closer
so we have to wait till time comes to that we can see each other
just like we use too
The days passed by like a summers breeze
you had left me days ago with the pain to be
i didnt know what to do but sit here and wait
while people around me told me to stray
so i did what i do best
showed you a side of men you nevered seen
but to my suprised you didnt care
i never told you about my past
why i could never open to all that last
so again i sit and wait
you passed me by more then once
looked me down with a blank stare
not know if to love me or just not to care
so we stopped talking not saying any word
but the scream of my heart rang through
people heard it and told me to stop
but again i sit and wait
then the ch
the building that moans at me by DAwk420, literature
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the building that moans at me
i sit in this chair
i hear screaming in the air
i feel the hate i see the gleer
i cant stand the violence
i cant stand this angry
run to my car
drie real far
must let go fo the fear
must die from hear
must leave this world adn this despiar
turn the wheel theres the bridge
hit the gas im allmost there
i see the bottom
one last breath then the end
now im dead no one care
hates still in the air
the girl i might not ever have by DAwk420, literature
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the girl i might not ever have
i like her
and maybe she likes me
but she with someone right not
so ill let it be
im happy she my friend
im happy she around
she brightens my day
she makes me smile
maybe one day ill get a chance
and show her that im maybe the right man
do i look stupid
do people think im dumb
why dont the see me for me
why do they run
i try my hardised
to please everyone but not pleasing me
but yet why is it when people say those hurtfully thing
i cry and run to my shell and hide
so i guess ill stay here and make peoeple happy
showing them that they were right
i am stupid and dumb
and i never amount to none
my life is a mystery
with a tangled web i weave
how i dont know what i done
or what to say
all i lknow is tonight was not my day
i sat there and watch not helping at all
watch a friend die on the inside
it all my fault
i should i done something
how can i call my self a angel
when all i am is a sorry friend
this house is falling apart
this family is not good
this fall from grace was hard
but nothing compare to the lost of a mom
she thinks i hate her but she dont know
she dont know that ilove her and i do anything for her
how i die for her give my life to her
so i hope that one day she will see me
in all my grace
i walked by and saw the death
the chaos the pain the hate the regret
i try to block it out i try to close my eyes
buyt all i see are the gates
with blood and gore all around
nothing to do i cant save them
but i cant so it husrt the pain dont go away
so i cry away and know i hide in shame
a angel every one hates and no one wants
with the pains of the world on me
and the shame of me around thee
i dont know whats worst
so i hide my eyes shadow my tears
only to know that ill never be loved again
So my life is in your hands
and my heart in your soul
so please dont break me
but make me whole.
i want to be complete
not shattered on my knees
i love you darling
for once i am in peace.
Current Residence: some where and stuff Favourite genre of music: same as above Operating System: windows XP MP3 player of choice: winamp Wallpaper of choice: dont have one Favourite cartoon character: invader zim and gir Personal Quote: i dont know i got a lot of them
Favourite Visual Artist
use to have one but she is a bitch lol
Favourite Movies
i got a lot i cant choose all of them
Favourite Bands / Musical Artists
punk rock trance and emo
Favourite Writers
edgar allen poe and me
Favourite Games
i like halo
Favourite Gaming Platform
xbox
Tools of the Trade
pencial my man purse and other things to kill beavers with
well im back to check things out. how are yall? well im good. im with someone that ive been with for 16 months now. well things are good. not really wrote anything in a while but i got into bass playing. well hope everone is doing well. you can find me on face book at justin dawkins if you like
yes its been a while since ive been here.sometimes i wonder if you guys that read these wonder about me lol. well i am fine i think. some days are better then others. other days i want to stay in bed and never leave it.
on a better note i am happily in LOVE yes thats LOVE with someone.i know that some of yall followed my last few dating mishaps on here and i do have to say that those times had their moments but i am completely and wonderfully happy with who im with. She is the best girlfriend/finance i have ever had.yes i know what yall are thinking here he goes again getting or talking about marriage but this time the gloves are off and sh